Young Blood

I haven’t seen you in so long. Looking into your eyes hurt me. I knew the truth but couldn’t accept it. Your unhappiness every day grew more and more.

Was it that boring? Was it that unsatisfying? I don’t even know who you are. Always a mirror, a reflection of all the things i couldn’t see within myself.

A slow withering rose, distorting your mirrored petals, the water i gave you grown putrid from the hubris of believing in your forever. I regret snipping you off your stem as a young bud, perhaps you could have had a chance to blossom.

I would die just to be the compost that makes sure your dreams aren’t disappointing. I want you to soar up to the highest clouds and never come down except as holy petals. The saviour of the hopes I sowed for you in my garden. Let the rest rot. I have not watered them in so long. I hope to next years crop will be fruitful enough to keep me alive. I can already tell next winter will be hard and summer hasn’t even begun yet.

Your self love, your aspirations, the daily joy you seek to garner; may the path be less gruelling, worn, and long without me. I hope the stones I laid in my garden and the path I paved ahead of you holds steadfast beneath your feet and provides you stability through your infinite journey. May the world love you as I have loved you. Feverishly, with fervour, always putting you first. May it hold you like I once used to: with the conviction to never let go. May it’s memory be better than mine and remember all the happiness past and also yet to come. May it sing to you songs that you can sing along loudly to. May it keep you safe every night. May it bring you new experiences that you can learn from without so much hurt. I hope the world understands you. May it’s light touch you, guide you, nurture you, and nourish you my angel flower.

May my eyes be able to glance upon your beauty when I die and sprout anew. I love you and always will. Even if we hurt each other so, the sting from our thorns were bearable, but deprived each other of room to survive. Go now. Grow now.